I was really stressed about my resubmission during the Easter break and had to work on that for the first week. I then had three weeks left to work on my Easter SDS. I started off by creating a mind map of what self means to me and how my journey has been about finding genuine happiness within myself.
The idea of naming my zine METAMORPHOSIS came from the journey of a butterfly. For such a long time, I had become so used to hiding every negative emotion I felt. In the same way, when we look at butterflies, we only see the beauty and many times we forget the caterpillar that they once were. I then began to create my audience board with images of all my friends from my camera roll and I was really happy with how it turned out.
For my styling shoot, I got the idea of doing a shoot showing my journey of attaining true happiness and I decided to run it by Carlyn and Suzzane but then during my tutorial with Carlyn she gave me an idea of doing a makeup tutorial and taking screenshots from it as I would do each step to cover up my flaws and then the final outcome would portray my current self, which is truly happy from the inside and not just from the surface. For my second shoot, I decided to use one of my friends in the building and I tried using rhinestones to make a butterfly shape eye look which I was really happy with we did the shoot in her room and it turned out amazing as she had these coloured lights in her room and that created a very euphoric vibe and I edited them a little blurry to give that euphoric vibe.
I’m looking forward to starting this semester and seeing where my zine takes me. I am confident in my abilities and the topic I have decided to concentrate on, and I am excited to see the results.
MY PROPOSAL
Growing up in Mumbai, Bollywood culture has been a big part of my life growing up. Seeing the glitz and glamour of all these Bollywood stars combined with my mother’s profession in dermatology sparked my passion for makeup and prosthetics.
My zine will be very personal to me. It is about my story of growth – coming from a broken family and moving to London alone at the age of eighteen to now being in a happy and content place in my life. Throughout my life, I have always hidden my emotions, even whilst I was struggling. Initially after moving to London, I was struggling mentally without any support as I did not have friends in my accommodation which made me feel lonely and depressed as I am naturally a social butterfly and an extreme extrovert. However now, I am happy to say that I have found a supportive circle of friends that make me feel loved and at home. I will be making this zine as an expression of my journey from depression to my current self which is happy and content.
My zine is titled “Metamorphosis” because I feel makeup is about transformation and concealing your flaws. For such a long time, I had become so used to hiding every negative emotion I felt. In the same way, when we look at butterflies, we only see the beauty and many times we forget the caterpillar that they once were. Like a butterfly, I have taken my time in my “cocoon” and now have emerged happy. I believe that all personal growth takes time and that the journey is beautiful.
The zine will consist of screenshots taken from a makeup tutorial I will be doing on myself. Each step of the makeup tutorial will be a visual representation of how I have concealed my flaws emotionally and use makeup to portray that visually. For example, when I cover the dark eye circles around my eyes, I am using concealer to hide that I have been crying. I am a naturally joyous and bubbly person that loves to socialise. I believe that human beings are all social creatures. I do not want to visually represent myself as someone who is sad, tired and lonely. The tutorial is my transformation to better represent my natural self which is loving and sociable. The zine is an explanation of the symbolism of the steps I do for the makeup look in the tutorial.